I wish you had been
welcomed
Into this world
With hands strong enough to hold you
Instead of empty rooms
Television screens
And figures that only looked down
I wish you had been loved
While that word was still just syllables rolling around your mouth like marbles
Your own special language
Only a mother understands
I wish you had been spoken to with pride
Built up with the truth
You struggle so hard to wear comfortably
Like clothes that are too tight
Or too itchy
I wish you had more affection
More attention
More eyes on your heart
than a highschool class
frog dissection
Someone to teach you
You deserve to have your little hands
Guided in the right direction
Towards self reflection
Its ok to make mistakes
To spill the milk
Love doesn't change when you disappoint
It stands firmly beside you
with grace
While you slowly stand on your two feet
After running away
to that lonely place
You go when you think
you're not enough
It caresses the sting
It soothes the ego
The lighthouse that steers
your ship home
I wish you had been taught how extraordinary
Your presence feels
How your touch
can regulate someones
Nervous system
How your weight
can calm a panicking bird
How your body
can teach a weary heart to beat
How your words are promises
And the impact of spitting them out
With no anchor
Can be the reason the titanic sinks
I wish you had been loved
with the force of a thousand hearts
like mine
So I could understand
The fears that pollute your well
and muddy your mind
The roots that poisoned this connection
The origin story
That made the man I love
Hate himself so
I wish you had been loved so tenderly
Meeting me felt like coming home
And instead of fearing the loss
To the point of sabotage
You stayed
And we played
Like the old children we are
Fun house mirrors
That show us only the truth
If we're brave enough to look
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