I never learn

Sometimes if you say it

You make it happen

Put it in motion 

Sometimes if you love it 

You kill it 

Just learn your fucking lesson

Happy New Years

Made to feel like a child

At a cafe

On a Wednesday 

Happy new year to me

Everything I’ve lost

Summed up in one dish

What’s left ,

put in a box

Reheat, repeat 

I fantasize about driving off the road 

in a graceful swoop

A ballerina crash

Can you curtsy with a concussion

An encore whore

With her tutu in flames 

I only wanted to be happy 

Instead I get a hundred fleeting moments

Straws and tar in a syringe

You laugh at my trembling lips asking 

You lie like a dog

Eyes to the ground

And you call me pathetic

I hope you can live with yourself....he says 

That was always the plan. 

You were simply a detour 

A fork in the road 

A roadside toilet 

A dash in and dart out 

You were never it for me. 

Written January 13th 2019

No words

If I could go back 

I would hold your hand in public

I wouldn’t care what people think 

My mouth would crash into yours

Like a tidal wave 

Like a wild fire 

I would love you to death 

If I could go back 

I would wait with a smile on my face 

I would linger in those moments 

I would save your pies and put them on display

They were to perfect to eat anyway 

We would make love in the morning 

I wouldn’t overthink 

I would be yours 

And you would be mine 

If I could only just go back 

To our time 

Written January 2019