Big Bills

I've got a lot of problems

Sex in the garden

And I wake up in the morning

sunglasses still on.

I like to be forgotten

like keys hanging in the door

or pennies to a whore,

not even worth the bother...

Gimme them big bills boys.

Chew them up

and spit them out.

That's what girls

are all about.

-Written Feb.18th, 2012

Sleepless

I want to be brutally loved

by a brave, bold like man,

who says what he thinks

and thinks what he says.

and is nothing like this

lifeless existence

I live in my head.

tossing and turning,

willing hands upon my flesh.

Regrets get you no where,

believe me, I've tried

but I'm still wandering

and wanting,

tearing down these walls,

here inside my head.

in my heart.

in my mind.

-Written April 4th 2008