Every time. (Kiss me).

I kiss the boys

And make them cry.

It happens every time.

Even when I consciencelessly focus,

It all still falls apart.

But don't worry

I'm not permanent

I can disappear.

I can walk away without a word

Or I can just stay here.

Written April 29th 2013

I am Alice.

Only the past can take

This panic away.

I saw you leap down

That rabbit hole.

I sensed the second your

Heart chose to be elsewhere.

The exact moment in time

Your love changed it's mind.

And like a china doll

I broke.

I ended.

I froze.

And now nothing can warm

These chilled bones of mine.

I hold my skeleton

Like a new born baby.

So gently.

I drag my soul behind me

Like a dirty blanket.

And I believe my haunted thoughts

Are destined to remain lost.

In this past.

In this panic.

In this painful

Wonderland.

I am Alice.

I am anyone

You want me

to be.

Written April 28th 2013

Dull tool

You're a dull tool

A dirty puddle

A nervous heartbeat

That's a tad too subtle.

So it goes unnoticed

It goes unseen.

It longs to be messy

But it just stays clean.

I knew you were different

But I never thought it through.

I never expected to fall

so deep with you.

But tables turn

And bread can burn

And sin can slip away.

Don't you know

I'd break bones,

I'd burn thrones,

I'd throw stones....

I'd be the perfect girl

For you.

A dull tool

and a stripped screw.

Written April 25th 2013