Sunday, April 10, 2016

shopping cart dump

Wrap me in a blanket
be my mother
a cocoon,
the safety of silk,
the comfort of milk,
hands and pressure and sweat
a loose hair,
a stray duckling,
no one cared enough to look back
and steer me clear
from destruction.
I am a grown up now
be my friend,
shake my shoulders,
remember, you were once important
even that shopping cart in the river
served a purpose,
had a brief moment
in the sun.
 
written April 10th 2016

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Cookie soup

Why do I always come back to this place?
A bag of cookies in a puddle
Too sloggy to enjoy on any level
Just make a soup with your rubber boot
Just burn me out
I will fade away
My mouth is exploding with vowels, with sounds,
With hope
But the world is suddenly silent
Dead, like my childhood pets
Just skeletons in the dirt
Cockroaches crawling up my skirt
Which my hysterical dance does nothing to stop
I think it drives them, excites them
Gives them life
Being this way scared me so,
That I gave birth to my own demise
I killed myself 
With expectations
They never let you live
You never get away 
My heart is medium rare
I smear blood everywhere 
A forensic nightmare
Too messy to love
But too tired to care. 

Written March 26th 2016

Untitled

I want to feel the weight of a man behind me
I want to feel the heat of breath on the back of my neck
I want to feel teeth drag the length of my exposed skin
Trailing down to my shoulders, collar bone and breast
I want to feel a mouth explore my soft skin 
The type of kiss that makes you gasp
Inhale with no exhale
A sensation that freezes all thought 
Insecurities forgotten, the fear of perfection dead
Take this wallflower to town
She just wants to be known. 

Journal entry from March 28th 2016

Die Fly

i loved you first
And you won't let me take it back
I have no receipt to tuck in my belt
No crown upon this head
Once upon a time, my love
I would have slayed a beast
I was a warrior for you 
Such a conquest
Such a trial
Such a shame
Just the ends of the bread
Left in this bag
Just the shell, no pearl, no butter
She adorns a neck somewhere 
But screaming her name 
To the blackened star bleached night
Won't bring her back
Chaos is like a fly 
It loves the light
it wants to die. 

Written March 20 something 2016