Only a matter of time (yes love revised)

Kiss me here. 

Take off some of the pressure. 

Ease this heart. 

It's heavy with dirt. 

I buried it alive

And hoped it would stay dead. 

I hoped it would never

Come back to haunt me. 

But love's a bitch. 

It never does as it's told. 

I'm not a fool

But I wish I was. 

I have my wits,

I can get my kicks. 

I simply wanted more. 

Written November 29th 2013

Yes Love.

He says he wants me

And abruptly backs away.

And he's assuming,

I'll beg him to stay.

I'm not a fool

But Boy, I wish I was.

I have my wits,

I can get my kicks.....

I simply wanted more.

I want to be known.

I want to be worn.

I want to be inhaled, and used

and warm.

The root of me,

is struggling to be

happy

with now.

But I have,

so much to give.....

Please take me and make me

more than this waste
of space.
 

 

 

-written November 3rd 2013

Pancake Pain

Crying into the pancake batter,

begging God to send me a friend.

Just a little something

to hold me over.

A magic pill to raise the dead.

I fucked it up again.

I was too much of myself,

in a concentrated dose.

Cut it back,

Water it down.

Trick those boys

and stay out of sight.

Convince them,

that I don't bite.

Save it for the pancakes

or a thirsty starving tree.

My tears are no good here.

A sweet treat full of misery.

 

Written November 5th 2013