Dove

Above me

Life's directions hover

Slowly cover and suffocate my heart

I swear the beating of it

could shatter glass

But it falls on deaf ears and locked doors.

It's a pity and a shame.

I have so much in me

but opportunity leaves me

at a loss.

This dove stays trapped

in my hands.

 

-Written Mid August 2011

Bad stomach feeling.

You make me feel

A thousand things

That I cannot even fathom

It's a never ending

Roller coaster ride.

And sometimes this is enough

Sometimes I am content.

Sometimes the green pastures

Have no safety net.

And you have to jump

And pray

That when you land,

You'll be ok....

Ok?

Trust is key,

You will not find

Any doubt in me.

Written Feb 23rd 2013

B is for Bullshit

I'm begging you, Love

to make this beating stop

smother this flame

and dispose of this pathetic idea

that dances in my brain

and makes me think

things can be better

because that dream died a long time ago

there's no need to dig up the past

and disturb this dust

that I have become

such good friends with.

 

Written Feb. 17th 2013

lost/found

I feel as if I am standing

at a great divide

and I could take a step forward,

I really could.

I can be brave.

I can be all the things I thought

I had lost.

It's like sleeping beauty.

I got my kiss.

my dying wish.

I have found myself

again

at last.

 

written Feb. 16th 2013

 

 

Need.

I need a mad love.

I need a hard fall.

I need a little heart break.

A good fuck.

A close call.

Written February 2nd 2013

I'm the girl

I'm hard to hold on to

But super easy to forget

A simple situation

A tragedy invasion

But yet still to complicated

For your little brain to comprehend

Frozen snake skin

Coiled into a stache

He tries to hide intentions

But I can see right through his pants.

And that makes me all the wiser

That makes me know it all

Better pull up those pants

Before you trip and fall.

Written January 31st 2013