There's something
hauntingly beautiful
knowing you will never be
mine again,
A bliss to knowing
I got the best of it
Our formula dies with us
But it exists in our light grids
As the hardest accomplishment
of our lives
and We did it
You only had to
break your promises to me
To keep them
Thank you for loving me
that much.
I hate that
I always forget
to blow cinnamon
Through the front door
On the first
of the month
And how I always
end up
Back at that window
Nose pressed
Breath fogged
Heart in my throat
Wanting you
I stand before you
In the shadows
Flesh on my bones
Still a baby at heart
To all the things I've kept inside
I cast thee out
Every objection drowned
My rejection stifled
A child that seeks love
Knows how to keep a secret
Even if it leaves her hollow
A Russian doll passed around the room
And placed in the hands of a demon
A dark flame unnoticed in a sea of light
Little hands cradling trauma
Like a bird with a broken wing.
I remember what you did to me
July 11th 2024
I act like I'm over this
And I give award winning performances
But I manifest you in the dark
And allow your reappearance
To hold me
I let you keep me still
I dance around you
Hoping you'll decide it's me
Praying you'll just finally choose me
It's a sick obsession
It's my life's mission
To cut this karmic tie.
