Cruel Joke

Nobody really knows me.

I'm not just a mother

or a watered down whore.

I have spaces and voids.

I hear voices.

I crave noise.

Is it

so wrong

to want

to hear

you fall

into me,

deep into this?

 

written November 22nd 2014

Dedicated Monster

Pick yourself up off the floor and

Let's watch a movie.

People can be such monsters.

The world could at least provide

the snacks

but nothing is sacred anymore.

Days melt together.

Fuse like jello in a mold.

Hurt me like you mean it

and I will take it gently.

I will wade into your depths

with grace.

I will eat your popcorn,

and I will be your film.

A dedicated monster

in a dark, electric storm.

 

written September 9th 2014.

Truth

I don't know you well.

the surface was scratched.

I can't say I love you,

but I care.

I was seeking a ship wreck.

You were looking to be saved.

A comfortable place.

A doorway to rest your boots.

And I gave what I could,

it's a familiar role.

My fear may have soured me

but my hands only held the truth.

And my lips,

only craved yours.

 

written November 13th 2014

exaggerated rhythms

I know better than to follow

barking dogs.

But I can get away with murder.

8 minutes of forced passion,

of rushed kisses

and exaggerated rhythms.

My heart is drenched in vomit

and it will never rinse clean.

I pulled the trigger,

some bullets can't be called home.

I have killed my love

and I must live with that truth,

all my days and nights ahead.

 

written September 9th 2014

Forgotten poem

I float with the current.

I lost my fight long ago.

I have no joy in my life.

I move without reason .

I want without desire.

 

Written August 10th 2014