Ideas (I'm in love)

I am in love

with an idea.

That one day

I will find you.

After a thousand years

I will rise.

The space in this void

will eat itself

and I will be full.

Of what?

I don't know.

But these wounds

they speak to me.

They tell me

to be very still.

Girl you are walking

a thin thin line.

Kiss the boys

and make them cry.

I'm in love

with an idea.

Deny, deny, deny.....

-Written November 16th, 2011 (right now)

I was Raped....

I was raped

and fed to sharks

and hung out to dry,

twice in 1975.

The year of transaction and color installation.

So touch me where I'm not all there

and heal the wounds you're

responsible for.

Ice cream is cheaper in a cone

the feeling is coming straight

through the phone

and C.C is obsessed with me.

Can't escape

my black fate

and my cookies are

the best.

-Written 2001

I'm a walking disease 2

She says I dress like a sexpot.

Rude, improper, unsatisfactory.

I have my father's habits.

Deadbeat, disaster, unsatisfactory.

My clothes are "passe"

and I'm mentally ill.

I have scars on my wrists

 and I went on the pill.

In the eyes of my mother,

unsatisfactory.

I'm a walking disease

so get down on your knees

and praise the ground I walk on.

I'm a walking disease

and it's burned in my brain

not much I can do,

I'm genetically insane.

The spawn of an alcoholic

and a freak.

Cursed from the moment I was conceived

and in the eyes of my mother.

A failure, a disgrace...

A walking disease.

-Written December 21st, 2006

I'm a walking disease.

The bottom of my feet are dirty.

Muddy, stinky, unsatisfactory.

The palms of my hands are sweaty.

Humid, rancid, unsatisfactory.

There's stains on my t-shirt,

a hole in one sock.

My shoelaces are broken

and my hair is in a knot.

In the eyes of my mother,

Unsatisfactory.

I'm a walking disease,

get down on your knees

and praise the ground I walk on.

I'm a walking disease,

a super slutty tease,

unless you say "Please"

But in the eyes of my mother,

A disgrace, a failure...

A walking disease.

-Written December 14th 2006