Retraction/miscommunication

I wonder if you read these poems

if you see

if you know 

I'm told,

"you're strong"

settle down

sleep it off 

wait it out 

wash it down 

BUT

can you not see

the immense hatred 

I hold for me?

meet me in a hotel 

fuck me satisfied 

and kill me with your hands 

and bury me in sand 

I cannot feel a thing 

but I wear your bracelet 

and your ring 

and if we should meet again 

I will hold my truth 

and I will gift it to you 

you said you wanted to know me 

Do you still?

here I am love,

here I am

broken and little 

missing my friend.....

Written August 11th 2016