Sleepless

I want to be brutally loved

by a brave, bold like man,

who says what he thinks

and thinks what he says.

and is nothing like this

lifeless existence

I live in my head.

tossing and turning,

willing hands upon my flesh.

Regrets get you no where,

believe me, I've tried

but I'm still wandering

and wanting,

tearing down these walls,

here inside my head.

in my heart.

in my mind.

-Written April 4th 2008